so i'm sitting in James' car today with my shopping in the boot and my dog outside behind the gate about to go crazy and he looks away from me.

"i'm a bit upset with the way our relationship is going"

y'know... i've known this boy for 12/13 years now and i still don't get him.

half the time i see him in school he doesnt wanna know me, the other half... well.

i don't like his friends, the room he hangs out in... it smells... it smells bad, there's a wall of smell as soon as you enter.

then after i put my hand over his and hammed the whole thing up a bit saying i'd make a conscience effort to improve he got out the car and went and played with my dog.

he's a pushover but way too guarded.

people should open up to me more.

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