i've started really disliking being around people again. i think it's probably because of the time i spend just with one or two people now. i was okay being with lots of different people and being on my own, now i'm just impressively anxious. all in the last 4 weeks. since i've quit smoking.

mother figure.

andy's a bitch, but i'm a softy and he feels it necessary to talk out his troubles with me once in a while.

but he's really insulting sometimes and i'm not dealing with that.

so i ignored him.

heart to heart:
andy:i'm sorry sometimes i mess around with you, i know i shouldnt do that.
me:i'm sorry you do that too.

i dont think i'm hard with people. i dont see why i should smile and tell everyone it's okay to shit on people. and i dont see why i didnt have the initiative to say to Andy: i'm sorry you have to shit in every helping hand you come across.

he actually looked surprised that i didnt say i forgave him and it amused me. i dont generally forgive people. and i rarely forget either.

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