as if i wasnt feeling bad enough. my mother has finally taken the chance to rummage through my bedside drawers and find my presciption and question me about it along with a big "you should talk to me more"- it's a bit late for that now isn't it? i really wish they just went back to ignoring me. i want my freedom back.

my head does not feel good, i feel like a thousand bees are buzzing around up there and they all want out.

they can get at the back of the fucking queue, cuz if anyone wants out, it's me.

i've surrounded myself with the male students at school. i've always been aware of it but not completely conscious of the fact that a lot of girls get on my last nerve.

but guys are good and since i do not force on them any sexual attraction what so ever, i'm completely accepted too. but it's also made me aware of how bitchy guys are too.

but with them it's funny.

with girls, it's just plain nasty.

i finally got my sociology teacher to see my point about the coursework i want to do: " an intergenerational study of people's perceptions of pornography" because i told him about how i didnt want to touch on racism as i feel i have no place there and porn and sexuality is so much more interesting, i also wanted to do "attitudes between male and females on homosexuality" more of a study btwn how men and women separately react to homosexuality in their own gender, i.e do lesbians get an easier reaction from women than gay men do from men?

but yeah, i'm gonna go pick my targets for my interviews and stuff.

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