mm mm mm... this aint good.

when i first met my best friend i thought she was a strong, intelligent, independant and overall cool girl.

she was in a relationship then.

when she broke up with that boyfriend she still seemed a SIIOCG, then maybe two weeks after breaking up with him she was with another boy. then 6 months later, when that relationship ended she didn't waste much time getting with another boy. then very shortly after that she got with another.

you know what i'm talking about? my best friend is a serial monogamist.

i've never known her to be without a boyfriend.

so i've never known her to be anything but a SIIOCG... until this time round.

because we talk a lot because she needs someone to talk things out to because i don't really have much experience with relationships so i can't offer any "advice" that she wouldn't want i've found that she may be a SIOCG... Which is fine, i love her but i did try and explain to her that sometimes it's very nice just being "you" it's nice being a single person, it's nice to know who you are that you really don't depend on others... that your happiness doesn't rely on one person.

and i told her that because she hasn't been single since she was maybe about 14 or younger... she should try and find out who she is now. because then the next relationship has the chance of being so much nicer.

she said she doesn't want to find out who she really is.. she wants a husband and baby NOW.

but...through all this "i want him back, i want him back now" stuff, i just couldn't think why you would imprison someone in a relationship they aren't ready to be in.

i wouldn't be happy, it could come close to destroying me... but if he no longer felt right in our relationship there's no way you can put someone through that... it's not fair. i hate cliches but it's so true that if you do truly love someone but being with you is stopping them from *doing* something it's very unfair to not let them go, and if they don't come back then it's probably best for both of you... Captain Corelli's Mandolin...

i'm babbling about something i'm not really versed in.

i don't know why she needs him, i know 101 men who'd treat her like a queen.. but whatever will make her stop torturing herself i guess.

she looked very small and little in the coffee shop... i felt horrible.

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